St. Joseph V. Jesus

I keep getting told that I just need to "plant" St. Joseph in our yard and pray to him for our home to sell.  I'm planning to go straight to the top - praying to Jesus for perfect timing and the perfect people.  Also, praying that this will be a great testimony to my friends that they can have a personal, one-on-one relationship with God...

Keeping it real...

I haven't posted for a long time.  The reasons for this are mostly because my heart doesn't always  usually feel as happy as I want it to appear.  I want my life to actually be like what I post on my blogs and read on others.  I know that people post what they want to display for all the world to see, and, I get that.  I have fun and good moments to post, too.  But, I also have heartache.  I feel like somehow it's not really okay to post all about that, or frustrations with moving to Togo, or life's disappointing times.  I keep thinking if I do people will think I'm depressed and want to help me, or that if they see the questions in my heart about Togo they will think I'm not really supposed to be going or not strong enough to be there.  Maybe.  I don't know.  But for now I've decided to post - happy, sad, disappointing, frustrating, joyous, and all.  Most certainly I won't post everything I think or feel, and I may stop again or make this a private blog.  I'm not sure yet.  There's no doubt in my mind that it's okay to be sad sometimes.  Just look at the Psalms, or John the Baptist's question from jail right before his head was to be removed, or Paul's attempts to convince himself and others that suffering is hard, sadness is human, and dependence on God is vital.
So, don't worry about me - at least too much :)  And know that although I have questions, frustrations and concerns about all kinds of things, I am going and doing what I think and believe that God has planned for me and my family - both here in the States and as we prepare for West Africa.